Hey, God.
I was in St. Vincent's hospital this morning, where a friend of mine was nearly killed by a cocaine overdose. Lying in that bed, he was a man who has been beaten, repeatedly and with baffling ferocity, by his addictions. He seemed stunned.
So, God, I guess I want to say "thanks." I don't know why I've been given this reprieve from my crazy-ass upbringing and problems, and I don't know why I've been given the opportunity to do the things I'm doing, but I'll do my best to be the person you want me to be.
So, God, I guess I want to say: Thank you for my challenges and joys. Thank you for my petty annoyances and my little moments of bliss. Thanks for the pain, the hurt, and the tears I've had, and will have in the future. Thank you for giving me people in my life that I love so much that it actually hurts to look directly at them.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
5 comments:
i like your post :-)..
God is amazing
shanna
xanga.com/shannariec
I know what you mean.
My indifference to whether I lived or died almost sent me to the latter result, way back when. Only the impending birth of my little boy stopped my slide.
I've been living on 19 borrowed years. And I am grateful for all of them.
Being an addict and alcoholic myself, I knew that feeling. I was beaten by my addictions as well. Ive been clean and sober now almost 4 years, a second time around.
Ah the joys of feeling powerless.
Now you have a choice, to help your friend and support him, or you can walk away.
HE has to choose to admit what the problem is and to get the help he needs to live clean.
I am also HIV poz and I am also living on borrowed time and ive had my probs. But you know it's all good.
hang in there.
Jeremy
(montreal)
I am not a better friend than you. Half the reason I went was to remind myself of what can happen. Although I've never done coke. Things that speed up an already hypomanic/hyperactive (depending on the age) person are things I've naturally avoided in my life.
Not nice to watch someone OD, glad he lived, these things do make you greatful to at least be alive, and make you remember your own life could be worse!
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