To figure out who would be my best therapist, I participate in a little interview. And after talking to them for a little bit, the directors of the center decided that my therapist should be the ex-CEO of a major publishing company… a guy who retired at age 50 in order to become a shrink. I met with him this morning.
I’ve decided that it’s time to deal with:
- My crazy-ass father. Not in terms of talking to the dude again, but rather coming to terms with the fact that I may never talk to him (or my mother) again. That, and the impact that they’ve had on my life to date.
- My supposed hypomania/ADD for which, apparently, I ‘m going to be getting tested.
- My obsessive thoughts about sex and finances. Mostly sex. But I was too embarrassed to just say “sex.” So I said “sex and finances.”
Anyway. I like the guy. He’s affable, smart, and doesn’t set off any of my “full-of-shit” alarms. He seemed appreciative… even relieved… of the fact that I’m heavy into Alcoholics Anonymous. I think lots of therapists waste lots of time with alcoholics who are still drinking… and a big subset of that group is happy to do so. This dude is clearly not one of those.
Anyway, I feel like I’m moving on to the next phase. Whatever that may be.
Love to all. Even you, the lecturer at the Mustard Seed.
8 comments:
Good luck. The 'shrink' is an underutilised resource in this country.
"My obsessive thoughts about sex and finances. Mostly sex"
Dude, you are a man. You are supposed to obsess about sex. It's what we do! And who doesn't worry about finances? When you got kids, providing for your family should occupy much of your mental energy. You may be more ok than you realize!
I do hope that you will share some significant discoveries, when appropriate, as I relate to you on all 3 of the issues. Course, according to the gentleman above me I'm worse off than you cause I'm a chic. :) See, you should feel better already.
Seriously, I hope things go well for you and you find what you're looking for.
Hi! I came across your site via Mental Defective, as she seems to have good judgement. I'm looking for the best Recovery Blogs, since of late (ten months) I've started working the steps and am fascinated how they are working for me and others. Also, like you apparently , I am 'dual diagnosis'.
Anyway, I am suddenly a conservative, lol, but we have this in common and I see you are a thoughtful writer. I'll add you to my new bloggo roll, which will remind me to visit.
You'll be amazed with how quickly you heal, since you are aware of your issues and are willing to work on them!
jackson: I wouldn't call myself "dual diagnosis." I'm just getting some extra help/input on stuff. "Not that there's anything wrong with that," of course.
Thanks, all.
Congratulations!
The only time a shrink works is when you find one that you don't think is "full of...".
This is easier said than done.
And then, from a manic perspective,...they can be a saving grace!..(ah, my head only has 5000 thoughts instead of 10k to obsess on now ;)
therapy rocks. Everyone should be required to go at some point in their lives. In fact, instead of putting money away for my children's college fund, I think it might be more productive to stockpile some cash for their therapy fund.
Anyway, I can't really relat on the obsessing about sex and finances thing. Can't say that I've ever obsessed about either one. HA ;-)
Seriously though, good for you.
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