Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Defeated.

So, about a year ago I was offered a job. It was with a competitor. Long established. And I really considered taking it. The main plus was that it was run by a high-energy salesperson who really loved her industry. I felt her strengths dovetailed perfectly with mine. I could both learn *and* contribute a ton.

I finally said no, due to a mix of about 80% numbers and 20% fear. I figured if I could do *okay* with my company, I could do better than doing very well with hers.

So, I ran into her today. It turns out that she's now approximately 12 times the size of my little firm... she has been getting all kinds of business from my many folks I try to work for (she named all these people, and I was like: FUCK), and has even been asked to audition for the same TV show I did. And she's the one person in my industry I'd pick over me for a show like that. Sure, I've been working full-time at my company for a year and half, and she's been open for twenty years... but ARGH. It makes me CRAZY.

So, yeah: I'm fucking depressed and whining about it. Sorry.

Love to all: even you, Ms. Almost my Boss.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I know it's incredibly easy to at times, but you can't really look at things that way. As you say, she's a bit further in the game than you, plus she might be a workaholic who's dead at 50 because she over-stretched. Plus her family life might suck or she might not even have one. Plus she might be one world-class bitch behind the scenes whereas (as far as I can tell) you are kind and thoughtful. Plus... I can think of 50 more pluses. Her life isn't yours, and while that may suck from a monetary standpoint you've probably got things going that she only wishes she could have. She's probably jealous of YOU on some level or another. No-one ever has it all or has none of it, even if it might sure feel like it at the time...