I'm awash in the stuff, and sometimes it's overwhelming.
I love Maggie in a lot of different ways. Sometimes it's companionate, sometimes its lusty, sometimes it's just kind of a mellow undercurrent. We've been together for thirteen years, now, so it's starting to seem like we've swapped genes, rather than just having fused them together a few times to make the youngins. These days, I spend a bit of time thinking about how to ensure that the fires remain stoked. It's really, really important.
I love my boys in a proud/worried way. They are headstrong, funny, wonderful boys that drive me up a fucking wall. I love my oldest fiercely, and I fear that I've given him a big-ass genetic dose of the things that are wrong with me... and that are also my best assets.
I love my friends in a mostly-pure way. There's one woman-friend that, under different circumstances, I might have pursued. Wait, scratch that. If I were SINGLE, I probably would have tried to sleep with every single female friend of mine. And female acquaintance. Because I am a class-A hound for the ladies. It's the subject of no small amount of ribbing from Maggie. I'm a sap for them, and I catch much-deserved shit for it. It's harmless, mostly. There's just this ONE friend that I have who I would probably have tried to seriously date, were circumstances different. It's a strange course, becoming friends with someone like that, but I guess it's part of being a "grownup."
My daughter. Well, my daughter is my ever-sustainable, always-renewable energy source. She's my big-eyed beauty and she sets off tiny bomblets of joy in my heart every time I look at her. She makes me feel like it doesn't matter what happens in the world, as long I'm able to protect her. She has changed my understanding of what it means to feel.
I'm a lucky man, to have so much love in my life.
Happy Valentine's day eve.
Love to all. Even you, the guy who shortchanged his colleague.
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xo
in a totally platonic, agape sort of way, of course.
You make me smile, every day.
Happy Valentine's Day :-)
Ha! There's something new we've learnt about you.
*nudge nudge*
But you're pretty cool yourself so I'm sure we won't mind ;P
Good thing this isn't your official valentine to your wife. How fun this would be for her to read.
Fiona: What did you learn?
Buzzer: There's nothing in here Maggie doesn't know, silly.
Not-faint-hearted: I had to look up "agape.":-)
Abba: Well, thanks!
I'm so glad. It would be really hard for me to hear that my spouse had feelings like that for another person, and that they were writing about it online. She knows that I keep my thoughts in check, and I love that she does it for me. It would be just beyond difficult to hear. Maggie is clearly a far better woman.
Buzzer:
I think I might have overstated the situation... I'm not pining for another woman or anything like that. Maggie is far and away the most important person in my life. As I actually said to her once, "I may have a crazy fantasy life, but literally NONE of them have anything to do with ever leaving you."
Haven't you ever met anyone that you liked like that, and had to kind of meld that into to your normal state of friendship? Render it harmless?
I always get uncomfortable when folks say "you are a far better man than.." or "maggie is a far better woman than..." We all have our faults and foibles, and we all have our good qualities.
Since this is the blogworld, we never get to see the whole picture, you know?
Do I know you, by the way? Just askin'.
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