My body has a built in stress meter: psoriasis. A few weeks ago, I'm fine. Yesterday, I go for a run, and when I 'm done I notice a fine trail of blood from my kneecap to my ankle. Doing the dishes tonight, I dabbed my elbow with a dishtowel and it came away bright red. It's time for a little ultraviolet radiation: tanning booth, here I come.
I am full of fear and insecurity.
I gave up my company to join with another. There are five partners. I have the plurality of shares. More than three times the next shareholder. But I do not own the majority. Three months in, this is starting to feel like a bad idea.
I look at how I've shifted tactics to handle the branding change, the new personnel, and I think I'm doing the right thing. But hard work doesn't pay the mortgage, and I live in a really, really expensive fucking town. When the TAXES are $24,000/year, well, doing well just doesn't cut it. Where I live, I am one of the least financially successful people in town. And that's kind of fucked up.
Time will tell, but I feel completely under the gun. And my left hand is bleeding.
Love to all. Even you, the five consecutive grownups who didn't say thank you.
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Man, stress is the WORST THING for psoriasis.
But you already know that.
Run, do not walk - to WalMart (or other random store). In the lotion aisle, grab a bottle of Malibu Hemp lotion. Make sure it's not the 'tanning' kind.
Then head for the Meds aisle, and pick up a bottle of MG217 LOTION. This is tar based, and will help take the edge off the worst areas. The other lotion is a dream - use it after you shower.
Those should hold you until you get to the tanning bed.
Best of luck, man. I have PsA, and it ROTS. The lotions listed above help when I CAN'T make it to the tanning bed - or am between med sessions.
My best friends niece has severe psoriasis and I have told her over and over to hit the tanning bed and they look at me like I have three eyes. It's not like I woke up one day with a miracle cure and thought I would throw it their way!! It works.
Stress certainly does not help. I wish you the best in dealing with the myriad worries you may have with the developing company. You seem like you are the type to jump that hurdle.
Shame on those grownups for forgetting their manners.
Hang in there and take care of yourself! peace.
Dry, cool days give my dry skin that does exactly what you describe. I just use some Keri lotion and viola! problem solved.
Tan shman. I'm pinker and prouder than previous.
I feel for you Rich. That is a tough spot to be in, for anyone. As hard as being a stay at home Mom is, I know it is just as hard to be the Dad that has to make sure there's food on the table.
But things have a way of working out for the good, so keep your eyes peeled and your heart open. =)
i'm really curious: what does $24,000/yr in taxes get u? Do city ppl come by every montha and offer bjs to everyone or what?! $24,000 - that's @#$% robbery!
I can't imagine living with that kind of stress. I don't know how you manage not to pass it on to everyone around you. No wonder your body screams out and reacts the way it does. Something always winds up bearing the brunt of our stress, and if it isn't external, it usually winds up being internal - to the detriment of our health. I'm sorry that your "internet friends" can't make it go away for you. I hope that venting helps.
Uh oh.
Good thoughts and wishes from over here, Rich!
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