Monday, December 26, 2005

A real baldness breakthrough.

I used to have the greatest hair ever.

It was super-long, curly, thick, and nearly black. I kept it in lots of different ways: tied above my head in a sumo-knot, box braids, triple pigtails, the Jesus look, and a plain-old pony tail.

In my drumming days, I could do some wicked head-banging moves when I came down hard on the crash cymbals. WHAM! It was an explosion of curls.

Now, though, I'm receding. And thinning. The worst of it is right on top of the back of my head. Angled correctly, my webcam at work becomes a BaldingCam. I try not to do that anymore.

This used to depress me. I'm on Propecia, which has frozen the loss in it's current state, but Rogaine is insanely scary and intense, and I'm not having surgery until they perfect follicle cloning... so I'm stuck as is for the forseeable future.

Sometime over the last month, though I went from being in a weird state of denial and low-grade depression (maybe it I look in the mirror this way I won't be balding) to: hey! I'm a guy with thinning hair! It's just the way it is! I don't know what happened, but it's a mild self-acceptance for which I'm thankful.

It's a breakthrough for me of no small proportion.

So love me. Love my thinning hair. I do. Sort of.

Love to all. Even you, Goldilocks.

5 comments:

ITS said...

What is it with man and hair anyways? You have a beautiful wife, 3 adorable children, you had over 1 mil in sales last year, and yet you are insecure over you appearance. Give a me a break bro...

On the other hand my hair is thinning too, and I am 25 single, my career is going nowhere, and I rent a one bedroom apt. I just wish to have enough hair to trick a woman into marrying me. After that if it starts falling, I will shave it all, and grow a beard instead to compensate.

Happy Boxing Day to you too!

Sports Bettor said...

Shave the head!

Zube said...

Zube Boy has been balding since we met (and he was 25). He shaves his head now, and that might be kind of drastic for you but it is OH so sexy. :-)

Don said...

I started loosing my hair (hairline backing up daily, thinner and thinner each day) when I was 20ish. I'm now 44 and have just the "horseshoe wreath" now. It is MUCH easy to keep up, etc. I've never been one to look at the drugs that can "help", as I figure my body has another plan, and I should let it do it's thing. (Although I will work on the weight issue some more. ;))

Glad to hear that you have "gotten over it" (mostly) and that you are moving forward with the process of loss. (Yep, loss of hair can be as bad as other losses.)

jsm said...

ahhh you speak of the undeniable terror some of us special ones incur.

for years .... i stared miserably into the mirror...

i now have the beard and shaved head and i'm awaiting stem cell research to hook us brothers up.

in the meanwhile i will continue to be completely understanding of your great post!

that fucking korean scientist really set us back a couple years. what a dick!!!!!!!!!!